I thought I’d write about something that is really starting to get on my nerves. The irony of writing about writer’s block…
I have an essay due this week. It is actually due today but I am ill and have been granted an extension. But for some profound reason, nothing is coming into my head to write! Instead I find myself tweeting (yes I know!), looking up Adult Education classes for my Dad to do and writing a blog to all you lovely people. Even on Sunday when I tried to write, I ended up making a cheesecake.. Procrastination at it’s best.
I have worked out the reason why though, well two reasons.
1) I’m sick. It really doesn’t help.
2) I actually hate this assignment. It’s boring and I don’t enjoy it. Trying to write on something you don’t enjoy is so tedious.
Although you could argue if you do it now, it’s out of the way and you won’t to face another Irish Studies essay again. But I don’t want to rush it and get an awful mark. Although I did enjoy reading the book (Kate O’Briens The Land of Spices), writing about the temporalities and possibilities of female-development is another matter. I’ve only got one month of college left though. I’d better just crack on with it.. Goodbye Kate O’Brien and your feminist literature!
I havn’t blogged in a while. I’ve had looooads of assignments due in and then what time I had off I was catching up on sleep and going out. However.. today has been a difficult day for me in terms of.. my future? What the HELL am I going to do when I graduate?
Now don’t get me wrong. I havn’t been completely clueless up to now. The problem is that my ideas are changing. I was at a meeting today… and I was advised NOT to do my TV/Radio production Masters degree next year but instead to do a Diploma in Education as a backup in case my dreams fall flat and I have no back up.. However I’m determined not to give up so easily. I’m currently emailing every radio and tv station in Ireland looking for advice. So far only Today FM has got back to me in what to do next year. I’m so grateful for that.. but what to do? If the councellor is right, and my dreams of working in Radio don’t come true.. could I really be happy teaching second level English and/or Music? It’s a very comfortable career to have and if I got into teaching I would be sorted for life.. but would I be happy? Am I willing to let my dreams and plans change?
So now I have to follow my head or my heart.. what would you do?
So right now all my friends are in their lectures and I have none to go to until 12. So I decided I would go to the Common Room and have a little blog about my day so far.
So today, I said goodbye to my boyfriend Joe. We’ve been together just over a year now and we’ve been friends since I moved to Ireland really. He is going job hunting in Waterford (down the South of Ireland) and I won’t be seeing him until Saturday or Sunday. I’ll miss him a lot but there is nothing for him where we live.
I drove to college drinking a secret coffee as usual .. (I’m trying to kick the morning caffeine addiction). It’s only been one hour but the symptoms are kicking in: headaches and crankiness. My new theory is to drink tea in the morning now, as believe it or not, tea does have a high enough caffeine content and I find it therapeutic. I find tea more of a winding down after college/work drink though so I’m finding this transition… preeeetty diffficult
Anyway sitting here on my own, some people are shooting me odd looks because of a certain hat I’m wearing. However, others have come over to tell me they love it. What do you think? I always liked quirky things. I find that your clothes express who you are 🙂 Let me know! And what do you wear that expresses your individualty? 🙂
So, I’m in my final college year (eeep!). My decision to study Composition came as a real shock to me. As part of my music degree I had to choose at the beginning of the year what I would like to major in: Performance, Composition, Musicology or Taught (a kind of random bits and bobs degree.. mainly aimed for Arts students). I choose Composition. Reason being? I nearly failed my Performance exams in my second year….and I was gutted.
I came into NUIM with the mindset of studying Performance for my finals. I felt so set in my ways. I thought “I’ve been Performing for years and I only began Composing, it makes sense to stick to what I know”. After studying it for 2 years though, I felt that my love for singing was being sucked out of me. There is so much pressure on you to deliver and if you mess up on the day, you degree is screwed! I learned that the hard way. I panicked and forgot all my lyrics and just stood there grasping at straws. Thankfully, I passed my exam somehow. And I was surprised to see that my highest scores overall was in Composition!? .
So I am now studying Composition and I love it! It just goes to show, you never know what life is going to throw at you. I never thought I’d be composing solo pieces for the Alto Saxophone.. I didn’t know I had that ability in me. My point that I’m making is that don’t be narrow minded and don’t be afraid to branch out and take risks. Try new things. You never know what life will bring your way or what new talents you might discover that you never realized you had.
I’ve been asked by a few people over the years on my opinion of college.. So I’m not going to lie here,college has been the best days of my life so far. Not that I’ve had a long life at the age of 20, but for anybody that has the ability and means to go to college, I would really recommend going. I am currently in my final year of college… ALREADY! God it’s so hard to believe I’m already in my third year. I have absolutely no regrets. However, it hasn’t been the easiest road to have a comfortable life in college. Here are the few tips I would give to anyone who is thinking about going to college:
1 – Research –make sure that the college/course that you are applying to is right for you. So many of my friends have wasted 1 or 2 years of their valuable time in the wrong course or a college they hated which has resulted in THOOUSAANDS of euros wasted. Seriously guys. Research! If you’re a creative musical person then the last thing you should do is go for a course like neuroscience. Sure, you might be thinking it’ll be good to have an impressive degree in the long run.. but at the end of the day most students drop out of courses that they don’t enjoy. Put yourself first.
2 – Set Goals – ask yourself “Why am I here?”. Picturing yourself with that legendary degree surrounded by all your new friends really makes all the difference adjusting to your new life. If you enter college with a dossers attitude, you will get a dossers degree.. end of. Go to college expecting hard work, and planning to try your best.
3 – Keep on top of things –easier said than done.. I know! Quite a few times over the past few years I’ve found myself up until an unholy hour trying to get that last assignment done or squeezing in that vital revision for that exam I knew about WEEKS ago! Seriously guys it is not worth it. Try to get little bits done over time and you will find college more of a doodle than I did. However, every student has at least that ONE assignment that they just can’t get the motivation to begin. If you find yourself in the situation where it’s 10 at night and the assignment is due the next day.. STAY UP AND DO IT! 😛 I know you want your sleep, but late assignments and penalties do not look good on your student record.
4 – Be an Early Bird –I’m sure for a lot of you this isn’t your favourite thing to read. I don’t always practice what I preach either. I have found though that in college, whether you live on or off-campus, waking up that extra one or two hours early can really help you during the day. Seeing as I’m in college Monday to Friday and I work the weekends, my time is limited. Having such a hectic schedule can mean I love that extra few minutes in bed. When I do apply myself though I can get exercise or college work done, and I feel fantastically productive after.
5 – Finally, have fun! –Challenge yourself academically, but leave yourself time to have fun as well. Don’t waste your free time hanging around doing nothing. Get out there and join some of the college clubs and societies. I joined the Dance Society and the Ladies Choir and I made amazing lifelong friends. Also, why not help run one? Being Secretary of the Music Society in my second year will be a good thing to put on my c.v 🙂 Go on night’s out and don’t be afraid to talk to new people… you never know who could be a new friend.